It's a BOY!
A week ago today we found out that our 3rd child is once again going to be a boy. When I finally started accepting that I was pregnant I began thinking for sure it was going to be a girl. I originally had always wanted 3 boys, but for some reason this time I was wanting a girl. I can honestly say that I am a boys mom, I am better around boys than girls. I have a father, two brothers, a husband, and two sons, so I'm pretty well oriented when it comes to the male species. With my prior two pregnancies I was sure in my mind and heart that I was having boys, yet this time I was convinced that I was going to have a daughter.
I'm not going to lie, the day of the ultrasound was quite disappointing to me. I know, it's horrible to feel like that because you have a living being, a gift from God, growing inside of you and I shouldn't be feeling disappointed about the gender of my baby. But I was, and I felt awful, but I really wanted a girl. I thought it would be nice to have a little girl in our family, it would help ease the amount of testosterone in our household. I've never had a good relationship with my mother and my mother didn't have a good relationship with her mother, so I was going to break that cycle. I wanted to know that it was possible, to have with my daughter, the relationship I always wanted and needed.
As I've referenced in a few of my previous posts, For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord... His plans for us was to have another boy. It has taken me the week to digest all of this and accept the fact that I may never have a daughter of my own. The reality is that I am truly blessed to be having a another little boy. And all I really care about is his health and well being. I've been catching myself repeatedly visiting my best friend's FB page as she too has 3 boys of her own. I have been a mother of two for so long now that it's hard for me to imagine what three will be like. I go to her pictures to get a glimpse of what we will be like in a few months. I am getting more and more exciting about meeting my little boy. Now, our only problem is coming up with a name. Since we were so sure it was going to be a girl, we didn't even bother looking for a boys name. I have 5 months to figure out the perfect name for my perfect baby boy.